I got angry a-year-and-a-half ago. I think, for the most part, justifiably so. But, I'm also a different person. There's a lot that goes into shaping and defining a person. Their history is only half the battle. I typically use a trial-and-error approach to all my issues, but the game of life is not a take-it-back-and-try-again kind of game. No reset button. I'm not proud of who I've been. I started over a while ago, but I wanted to announce that publicly on here.
I no longer use this account. A vast group of people are not fans of me. I don't know what each individual person believes about me - I've heard rumours one way or the other - I've even been openly accused of a few horrifying things. I could sit here and defend myself, but since I've lived life with my guard down, I have no alibi. Yeah, my guard is up now. I've been betrayed, lied to, stolen from and socially destroyed by people I've trusted so many times that I've decided to grow a pair.
If you've lied about me, stolen from me, made me out to be a person I'm not, or generally betrayed me, go fuck yourself. <3
Anyway. I would hope against natural human sociality that no one would judge me based on anyone's words but my own, and the words I mean and say here and now. As I said, I no longer use this account. I've changed to the secondary account I made ages ago. Ichbezogenheit. There are quite a few friendships I miss on here. The only way to reopen those doors are if I at least knock on them. If there's no answer, no worries - I'll move on.
I'm also trying to reopen the doors to my artistic side. One problem I've always had is that I've never been able to interpret what's going on inside my fucked up mind onto paper, into words or even into my own comprehension. I think that's why I love abstract art so much. But, when I closed my accounts I also closed doors. One thing I found myself halfway decent at was at least community-oriented activities. On that note:
I'd like to publicly apologize for getting rid of the original Thinking Man Project. I'll put the Dr. Evil Project back up - but I really do feel shitty about taking them down. They weren't my pieces of art. They were community collaborations that I was proud to host on my profile. I'm sorry.
Anyway, if you believe in second chances, come find me on Ichbezogenheit. Hope to see some of you guys around.